Awake!

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Where are you? Alone I weep…in quiet solitude.

Replaying segments of my life, a torture chamber of loss.

The wind of your spirit swirls around me like a cyclone
unable to break through the barrier, the barrier that I created to stay safe and secure.

I want you, I need you, i’ve got to have you!

Yet something inside rages like a blazing inferno, screaming!

I can do this alone!

I am strong, and weakness is not acceptable…please go.

Oh how I desire you, don’t leave.

Confusion…My soul ripped in two.

Suddenly

The rain comes, first a trickle, then a steady down pour…at last a deluge.

The waters begin to wash away the invisible film around me, that keeps me bound…the perceived protection.

The water pools at my feet,then saturates every inch of my body

it’s coolness awakens me.

AWAKE! AWAKE! Daughter of zion! Rise up!

AWAKE © Melody Perez - http://www.runninghorses.weebly.com

Slowly I awaken. Through a cloud of deep unconsciousness I begin to see.

I stretch my arms, reaching them high to the heavens.

His radiant light beams down upon my face, I am alive once again.

You have awoken love in me!

Hope

A most unlikely symbiosis.

A love complete.

I will trust

You are here

You never left

About Amalia

My name is Amalia, I am a survivor, but I am not simply surviving here. I fully intend on living life to its fullest everyday of my life. My past does not define me, it is simply a part of me and a contribution to who I am becoming. Fully awake, fully alive. Love is my religion. I enjoy meeting new people from all different walks of life. I love engaging in deep, meaningful conversation with others. I believe we each have something to add to anothers life. I love Jesus. And the way he interacted with people, especially the outcasts. I sometimes feel as if I am a very old soul born hundreds of years too late. But am realizing I am right where I am supposed to be, there are no accidents. I cherish those who love and accept me for who I am, intensity and all. Who love me for me, not who they'd like me to be. When I love, I love deeply, when I hurt I hurt deeply, I can feel others pain, an empath, but I would not change a thing. My 'story' has molded me into the person I am today and I like me! I am deeply moved by early morning sunrises and evening sunsets, by flowers, bugs, the changing seasons,barefoot walks in the woods, the wind in my hair and the sunshine on my face. I love capturing these moments with my camera, as well as trying to share the emotions attached on canvas. Music is my drug of choice. It soothes me when i'm feeling down or overwhelmed. I am drawn to other creatives and out of the box thinkers, the misfits, outcasts. I love to laugh and make others laugh. Laughter is amazing medicine. I have ADHD and it shows, I am currently....LOOK A SQUIRREL! I have a very strong sense of justice and nothing angers me more than seeing others taken advantage of or harmed, especially in the name of religion or by those in authority who use their authority to harm or control others. I am childlike, yet intense and will fight for those I love until the bitter end. But i've also learned that I cannot save anyone else and have learned when to let go. Because that too is love.

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