I Will Follow


I will Follow

As I walk daily along this road called life, I have a greater awareness of Papas love for me.
It’s in the broken places, the heartache, that this revelation of His loves grows within me.

I am realizing there are still many unhealed places within my heart that He is healing, one day at a time, as I choose to submit myself to Him. Often times the sting can still be felt, but I know I am headed in the right direction.

I can walk in forgiveness, and still feel  pain, it’s ok. He will take me through.

I had a dream a few months back while walking through a major hurt in my life. I would love to share.

I was walking frantically around trying to find my purpose, my place, belonging.

After I had exhausted all my ‘options’ I started walking back up a mountain.

It became pitch black all around me, and I was frightened. I knew there were wild animals all around me. (danger)

Suddenly a full moon appeared, and the moonlight shone down upon my feet. God was saying, “just follow my light”.  I will lead.

The moon shone on my steps only one step at a time, I could only see my feet, and about 12 inches in front of me. I had no idea where I was going.

I strayed from the light once, which led me to an abandoned factory …not my destination, I continued on.
I quickly ran back on to the path, into the light. The light brought me through some muddy places, and few ditches, but eventually I found myself at a rundown shack guarded by what appeared to be a homeless man. Not where I expected to be.

He called me over, I knew i had arrived at my destination but was somewhat taken aback by the run down shack.

The man opened the door ‘home’ for me, and the shack was full of golden keys covering every inch of space.

As I woke from this dream I felt God speaking to my heart that this is my place, my destiny, to walk with him daily, following him, and that He would lead me. My job was to simply rest in Him, and follow His leading.

Many of us find ourselves in this place. It can be frightening, uncertain….

I have no desire to fall into that place of striving any longer. It is simply too exhausting.

Many of us have been taught in this walk to fight and come against pain. But in those painful places, Daddy meets us, and brings healing if we will let Him. One step at a time we are brought into to levels of greater freedom. When we are submitted to Him He will lead us, and bring us into His perfect plan for our lives.

Lead us Lord, show us the plan you have for us.

Meditation: Psalm 23

About Amalia

My name is Amalia, I am a survivor, but I am not simply surviving here. I fully intend on living life to its fullest everyday of my life. My past does not define me, it is simply a part of me and a contribution to who I am becoming. Fully awake, fully alive. Love is my religion. I enjoy meeting new people from all different walks of life. I love engaging in deep, meaningful conversation with others. I believe we each have something to add to anothers life. I love Jesus. And the way he interacted with people, especially the outcasts. I sometimes feel as if I am a very old soul born hundreds of years too late. But am realizing I am right where I am supposed to be, there are no accidents. I cherish those who love and accept me for who I am, intensity and all. Who love me for me, not who they'd like me to be. When I love, I love deeply, when I hurt I hurt deeply, I can feel others pain, an empath, but I would not change a thing. My 'story' has molded me into the person I am today and I like me! I am deeply moved by early morning sunrises and evening sunsets, by flowers, bugs, the changing seasons,barefoot walks in the woods, the wind in my hair and the sunshine on my face. I love capturing these moments with my camera, as well as trying to share the emotions attached on canvas. Music is my drug of choice. It soothes me when i'm feeling down or overwhelmed. I am drawn to other creatives and out of the box thinkers, the misfits, outcasts. I love to laugh and make others laugh. Laughter is amazing medicine. I have ADHD and it shows, I am currently....LOOK A SQUIRREL! I have a very strong sense of justice and nothing angers me more than seeing others taken advantage of or harmed, especially in the name of religion or by those in authority who use their authority to harm or control others. I am childlike, yet intense and will fight for those I love until the bitter end. But i've also learned that I cannot save anyone else and have learned when to let go. Because that too is love.

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